So was talking about blogs and realized how much I miss writing on here. So I'm back! Yea me!
Here is what I am thinking about. Church. Eek...touchy subject for some. But I'm going there. You can agree or disagree with me- doesn't matter. I'm simply sharing my opinion.
What is church? Well for the longest time I struggled with this- struggled with all the bologna that comes along with church- the politics- the he said she said high school garbage, the need to please and compete with other members, membership, just the nonsense that tends to creep its way into GOD'S house. Well after much prayer and time arguing with God about it- we came to a conclusion. Notice how I said "we" HA. Well God explained it to me gently.
Church is not what the world thinks it is. It is probably not what you think it is. It was definitely not what I thought is was. Church is well..NOT ABOUT ME. It's not about making me feel good or safe, it's not about cheering me up when I'm down, it's not about responsibility or obligation, its not about the sermon, it's not about the music, it's not about the person sitting beside you- or Pastor in front of you. It's not about heaven or hell. It does not make you a christian, it does not make you saved, it does not make you better than someone not attending, it does not mean you are closer to God just because you are there. Church is and always should be about GOD. Not religion, not emotions, not a building, not a choir. Church should simply be a place where you praise God, remember God, notice God, SHARE WITH GOD. It does not have to be in a certain building, it can be anywhere you and God make it. Church is a time to tell God how much you love him or how angry you are some days. It's simply a connection point in my opinion. A wonderfully amazing special friend in my life was once told by a pastor that her loved one would not go to heaven simply because she did not attend church. Honestly I want to smack that man. I want to kick him with my cowboys boots and give him an ear full of my opinion. I want to shout at him about who MY GOD IS!!! I want ask him who is he to judge her and what kind of pastor would say that to a person in deep grief anyway. GRRRRRRR!! STOP- I know you are thinking what kind of christian does that make me.... Well here is my answer- ZIP IT- I'M REAL. I'm not a sugar coated and smile and pretend I know it all and am perfect. I am not going to act like I have it all together. Truth- I'm more screwed up than you. I'm a sinner. I make mistakes. I have REAL emotions. I AM MEGAN BREANNE SHIELDS and well I'm a mess- BUT.... GOD LOVES ME ANYWAY. Loves you too! No matter how screwed up you are. If you were perfect you wouldn't need God and well God wouldn't need you either. That's just not how he operates. If you are curious about more of my opinions- stay tuned.... no filter--- I'm going to stand for what I know and tell the world one person at a time just who my God is.
